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To be Enough for Jesus Christ

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I’m not perfect, in ANY way! But I constantly strive to be better. On top of that, you could say I am a little obsessed with vintage. Not so much as vintage stuff, but vintage life. I think in awe of the days where phones didn’t exist and clothes dried on a line. I don’t think I could do the phone thing, although I am always tempted! But, I have done the clothes on a line before and I hope to one day get back to it! Anyway, I feel like it was much easier to connect with Jesus when we had less distractions, but it’s our duty as Christians to figure it out! It’s our duty to try to be enough for Jesus Christ. Exhibit A…

“‘This people honors me with their lips, but their heart is far from me; in vain do they worship me, teaching as doctrines the commandments of men.'” – Matthew 15: 8-9

 

Mother’s Day Relaxation

Alarm is set for 6am, but the kitties woke me up early, which is fine because my body is biologically set to wake up at 5am anyway! I zombie walk to the kitchen and turn the coffee pot on. While waiting, I wrote up the grocery list just in case my husband wanted to go to the store early in the morning. I finished around the same time the coffee pot was filled. With my coffee cup in one hand and my study in the other, I plopped on the couch all snuggled in my blanket.

Yes, it is almost summer time but I still like the feel of cozy mornings. #dontjudge

My morning, was just like any other other morning, except for the fact that it was Mother’s Day! Normally, my husband would make a big breakfast, but he just started back at work and my son and I are trying not to go to public places due to Covid-19, so he had to wait till his next day off to go grocery shopping, which happened to be Mother’s Day!

So, we fed the little one and my husband ordered us breakfast. As he went to get his shoes on to go grab it, our son started to put his shoes on too! Oh, it breaks my heart that he can’t always go with daddy right now. But, since restrictions are starting to lift and he was just picking up the food, I figured why not just let him go on a car ride! He’ll love it!

Mommy Alone Time? What is that?

Then it dawned on me, this is the first time, since he was born, that I was home without him.

It was weird blowing him kisses goodbye as he left in daddy’s arms, when normally it’s us blowing kissed goodbye to just daddy.

As I closed the door, I was like “woah, this is weird! What should I do? Okay, what can I not do when I have my son with me? Oh! Go on my phone!” {I don’t like my son seeing me on my phone so I try my best not to be on it while he is awake.} –> These are some things we like to do together instead!

So, I sat down on the couch and opened up Instagram.

Scroll.

Scroll.

Scroll.

Is this who I want to be? Am I being a good mom?

Well, why can’t I relax for a bit and be on my phone? What’s wrong with that? – I asked myself.

Naomi and Mary Guilt Trip

Scripture about Jesus Christ

And then, I realized the kind of women, mom, and wife I strive to be, would put the needs of their family and home first.

Being on my phone and mindlessly scrolling through feeds wouldn’t benefit me in anyway. It wouldn’t grow me spiritually or mentally. What would come about this wasted time?

Naomi from Ruth comes into mind. Mary comes to mind. Proverbs comes to mind. Jesus comes to mind.

I got off my phone and off my butt,

Turned on some Kane Brown and started cleaning.

I washed and put away the buggy’s breakfast dishes. {No, we do not have a dishwasher, we have this new thing called mom’s hands! :P}

I picked up the living room full of toys.

I straightened up the papers on the dining room table.

Got dressed, brushed and washed my face.

Called my mom and had a nice chat with her without having a toddler climbing all over me.

I felt good. Probably a lot better than I would have felt if I had spent this time on my phone.

To be Enough

You know, we live in this day and age where we are told over and over again that we are doing enough and we are doing our best.

But, who’s to say? Why are we allowing stranger Suzie on Facebook to tell us we are enough? As a matter of fact, who are WE to say we are enough?

I’m not qualified to judge myself. Only God is. Only Jesus can judge us. So no, I am not enough and I will never be enough. But, that doesn’t change God’s love for me. That doesn’t change His want for me. And, that doesn’t change my need to please Him.

Paul writes in 1 Corinthians 4 verse 3:

“I care very little if I am judged by your or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself.”

We need to stop allowing the thoughts and approval of others decide if we are enough. As Christians, our attitude should be, always, to seek the approval of our One and Only Savior, Christ Jesus.

Okay, Okay, Hold On..

I’m not, by any means saying you’re not allowed to rest, that’s why God gave us the sabbath day. 

What I’m saying, and even more to myself, is to stop following this ‘New Age’ thought process. I don’t want to be enough to make my social media friends happy, I don’t want to be enough to make my kids happy, and I don’t want to be enough to make myself happy.

I want to be enough to make Jesus happy. Because, if I can accomplish that, everything else will fall into place.

“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” – Matthew 6:33

You’ve got this!…Because You’ve got Him!

Girl, don’t hate me! I know you are working hard and I know you are tired! But keep on going! Keep on striving! Because God is watching, He is always watching! Jesus IS the Grace in the midst chaos!

 

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